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'JAMES.P.SULLIVAN'

birthyear // 1960

starsign // Libra

gender // male

from // London

species // butterfly panther
// blue, fuzzy monster

Why 'James P. Sullivan'?

For those of you who have seen Monsters, Inc., the name might seem familiar. And, indeed, the reference is one to good ol' cuddly Sulley. It helps that his real name is also James, even if the surname differs and he does not have a middle name to my knowledge.

The reason I picked Sulley as his nickname is that James has claimed on various occasions to be a monster. Since I couldn't disagree more with the assessment, finding him to be a truly charming and wonderful individual, I decided to agree with him in an unexpected way: I let him be a monster, but a friendly, cuddleable one.

A further irony is his liking of the colour purple - a hue that can be found in Monsters, Inc.'s Sulley's fur coat.

I suppose he's come to accept the nickname, begrudgingly, as he no longer threatens me when I use it.

Though perhaps that's just laziness on his part.

Tch.

What I like

In a nutshell, Sulley is utterly desirable. He has a flirticeous manner about him that I cannot possibly resist, that draws me in, inevitably, like a dark syrup. I understand and acknowledge the impossibility of that ever becoming anything more, but I refuse not to mention this first and foremost as the truth. He's sexy and I'm sure he knows it. Besides, if metrosexual weren't a word before, he would define it.

Most notably beyond the immediate aura and demeanour mentioned above, he has a way with words that I envy. He wields the English tongue like a weapon, mostly sparring with it, describing beautiful patterns in the process. He's busy writing his auto-biography - and you can bet your whole belongings on that I will be getting myself a copy, simply so I can indulge in this man's writing style.

As with all my deities, Sulley is very intelligent, and I love him for it.

Note that even though this list may seem short, it does include nearly his entire personality and wisdom. Really, it's far more interesting to look at the exceptions...

What I don't like

Sulley is quite a diva, in the broad sense of the word, wherein certain personality traits can be found. In other words, he's quite a bipolar personality, moving from a warm, caring, even loving individual in split seconds to a cold, relentless, cruel being.

It doesn't make him any less desirable and my trust in his person will never falter, but the mood swings can take a chunk out of my own mood - primarily because I dislike seeing Sulley unhappy and the cause for some of his bouts of depression elude me.

Part of the reason they elude me, however, is simply because he is so introverted. Sulley somehow believes that his life is not of importance to the world as a whole - which couldn't be further from the truth, but seems unbudgably ingrained in him. It is very hard to get him to speak about what ails him - and very hard to get him to understand that he can hurt people by not wanting to hurt them; as in, by being silent about his pain as though he could hide it entirely, because he does not wish to burden his friends with the explanation of what has gone wrong, even though their not knowing is far worse a torture for them since they cannot do anything about what they know nothing about.

History

Sulley's case is one I refuse to plaster over the internet even with the name altered as it is, simply because it is convoluted, deep, and extremely personal. I am sure he would not be happy if I shared it.

In the end, it has simply established itself that I would do nearly everything for him - and that, in an awkward fashion, he appreciates all of that.

It is delicate.

But I feel it is very much worth it.